Mommy2Perfection

Sometimes...

2012-02-02T23:26:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I wonder who people see when they look at me.

Do they see a Mother, with three little ones.

A wife, who is trying her hardest to be submissive.

A sister, who is missing a sibling.

Do they look at me and think, "There is the woman who is living in a hotel"

Do they think I'm happy, sad, hurt, confused.

We are who we are because of those who are in our lives. Without Alex, I wouldn't be a wife.

Without Nehemiah, Virginia and Jana, I wouldn't be a Mom.

Without my parents, I wouldn't be a daughter.

Without Stephanie, Nicole, Joseph, Jason, Jordan and Jesse, I wouldn't be a sister.

Without Micah, Adaliah, and Titus, I wouldn't be an Aunt.

Earlier tonight I dropped my brother off at the school and saw a girl, and I wondered if she knew Jason, and wondered if she looked at me as a girl who lost her brother.

Thing is, I didn't lose my brother, I know where he is. I KNOW I'll see him again. It was a terrible day that Jason left this World, but he's rejoicing and waiting.

But still I wonder, have people forgotten him? Or do they look at me with pity?

Do they look at me and wonder if I've lost my mind for having a 3 year old, a 2 year old and a 6 month old.

I hear so many negative comments about having children that close that people don't stop to hear that I love it. I cannot imagine my life without these three blessings.

Do people see that I adore my husband? Do they notice that I struggle to be a better wife? Can they tell that he makes me so happy, but he's also the one who could break my heart if he wanted to.

Do people pity me, or are they jealous? Can they see the bags under my eyes from staying up too late, worrying about things that will wait until tomorrow. Can they tell that I was up countless times with my kids, because they need me, they're hungry, thristy, in need of the bathroom?

Or....do they see me? A Wife, a Mom, a Sister, cousin, friend, aunt, daughter-in-law, neice, a person who needs loved.

sleeping kids!

2011-12-13T21:56:00.000-05:00

Virginia has been wanting to sleep in our bed lately, which makes for a terrible night sleep for Alex and I...tonight she started crying again to sleep with us, and I once again told her no. About that time Jana popped her head up and laughed, so I asked V if she wanted to sleep in the crib with Jana. Both girls seem to like this idea....let's hope this keeps both of them sleeping tonight!

I won this adorable hat on Listia and Nehemiah has asked to wear it to bed every night. He insists it's his nightcap. Ummm....whatever.

Ideas from the forest: Folding christmas trees

2011-12-13T15:10:00.000-05:00

Ideas from the forest: Folding christmas trees: CUTE!!!

Kids

2011-12-08T17:40:00.000-05:00

Miss Jana turned 5 months old yesterday, she's the sweetest baby I've ever met. And extra silly! Last night she didn't want to sleep, so she'd fake cry to get me to her room, then laugh when I got up there!!

Virginia is now talking all the time...she comes up with the funniest things. She loves all things Cinderella, so here she is with her new bow, wearing Adaliah's dress

Nehemiah is getting bigger everyday. He's learning so much in school. It's neat to watch him learn his shapes, colors, letters and such.

Sis does have her moments of sitting still, and she's a total Daddy's girl when he's off work!!

Saturday I'm doing a craft show and I'm really excited about it, I've never done anything like it, and I hope I do well. If not...I've had fun doing it! Here is what I'll have there!

Giveaway!!!!

2011-11-21T09:40:00.001-05:00

!!Giveaway closed!!
Elisabeth Holsapple is the winner! Congrats!!

Last week Alex and I were doing our devotions when I asked him to pray that we'd somehow have money for groceries, specifically, Thanksgiving dinner. I had $4 on Wednesday and it had to last until his next paycheck....we didn't know what to do but to call on His name.

On a whim I posted some pictures of the crayons I'd recently made.

Instantly someone asked how much they were and when I told her, she bought them all.

Since then I sold some more and realized, hmmmmm....maybe people like these? ;)

Last night I was sitting amazed as more people were ordering them when it dawned on me...I'd asked for this!! Sometimes as the blessings come, we don't see where they are coming from. Tears started to roll down my face at God's love.

And now....to the giveaway!! I'm going to giveaway 4 crayons!!! 2 Gingerbread men, and 2 snowflakes of my choice! :)

To enter.....tell me something awesome God has done for you recently.

For any extra entry, blog about it and post a link on here.

Be sure to leave your email address....so I can contact the winner!!!

I will draw a winner sometime on Friday. Winner has 48 hours to contact me after I email them!

Good luck!!!

I just won 25 points on the SuperLucky Button!

2011-11-09T16:39:00.000-05:00

I just won 25 points on the SuperLucky Button!: Superpoints is a members-only club where you earn great rewards for doing things online like taking surveys, watching videos or shopping.

Another letter

2011-11-06T23:51:00.000-05:00

I wrote this on Jason's Facebook wall...but it was too long, so I'll post it here.

Nov 11, 2006.....you were the one to hold me after Jesse gave me the news of Grandpa's death, you picked me up off the floor and hugged me. I don't think I ever thanked you for that. Now, I keep the pain to myself when I want to scream, to cry, to yell about missing you. I talk about you to friends, family, to waitresses who have no idea who I am, who you were. So many people will never know how amazing you were, never knew the smile you had, know that the best way to put you to sleep was to rub your ear. You loved that as a child. And not long before you left us, I was talking about that with you and Mom, and started to rub your ear....and you instantly relaxed and started to fall asleep....I find myself doing that to my kids, and thinking of you. They didn't know that you loved kids, and you'd do anything for your nieces and nephews. So many people didn't know you...but I was blessed to. Someday I WILL see you again....and I want at least a thousand years to sit and talk to you. To show my kids to you, to ask if it was worth it. I love you Jason, now, and always. For now, tell Grandma, Grandpa, Gramma Beth and Josh, we love them....and we'll be Home soon

Two Years old and still my Baby girl

2011-10-22T12:44:00.000-04:00

Adorable

2011-10-09T17:50:00.002-04:00

I will never!!

2011-09-28T14:41:00.000-04:00

Isn't it funny that as soon as we hear those words come out of someones mouth, we almost laugh?

Maybe it's a young person looking at someone elses child, saying, "My child will never act like THAT!"

Or a young woman saying, "I will never marry a man like MY dad!"

And we laugh. How many times must we say that, and wonder if God is laughing at us?

I vowed I would NEVER marry a man younger than me, he would NOT have a beard, and I didn't want him to preach!
And God laughed at me, and sent Alex my way.

Now, in my defense, Alex didn't have a beard when we met, and he wasn't preaching. He was obviously younger than I was though.

God worked around MY rules, by allowing me to fall in love with Alex before he preached, and before he grew a beard.

I told myself I will NOT have a lot of children. Now, granted all the kids this picture are not mine, but three are. And really, I couldn't imagine life without them!!

I told myself, my daughters will NOT wear pants once they are walking, they WILL be in dresses and skirts. And God gave Virginia dry skin.

Why?

To punish me?

To hurt my girl?

Or was it to show me not to be so proud and to humble myself and know that sometimes things don't go the way I plan them, that I need to rest in His arms.

I know my children aren't perfect, but, what does one expect, their Mom isn't perfect.

but you know, He's still working on me.

And.....He'll keep working on me until He takes me home.

I just won 1 point on the SuperLucky Button!

2011-09-20T21:46:00.000-04:00

I just won 1 point on the SuperLucky Button!: Superpoints is a members-only club where you earn great rewards for doing things online like taking surveys, watching videos or shopping.

My kids

2011-09-17T17:32:00.000-04:00

2011-09-08T08:10:00.000-04:00

Jason Timothy Daniels 6/16/91~9/8/10

I Am From...

I am from wreckage, from a home broken from within.

I am from success, from a family that has set goals and achieved them.

I am from a paradox, from somewhere that is good, but not good for me.

I am from a small town, from friendly neighbors who gossip about me.

I am from religion, from a society that conforms to non-conformity.

I am from family, from protection, harm, encouragement, and discouragement.

I am from God, from a higher power that has set me in this test called "Life".

I am from love, from a love for all that is "Right" and "Godly".

I am from hate, from a hate for "things of this world" and for "wrong-doing".

I am from you, from the person who cares enough to listen to what I have to say.

I am from them, the people that criticize me and bring me down, so that I can rise above it.

I am from a higher calling, a calling that leads me to believe.

I am from believing, from a belief that Life is gerenally good, no matter how bad it may seem now.

I am from myself, from my inner beliefs that make me my individual self.

Written by Jason Daniels on September 2, 2009

A year ago

2011-09-07T12:02:00.000-04:00

A year ago today, I could still call you.

A year ago today, I could still talk to you.

A year ago today, you were still here.

A year ago tomorrow, it would be too late.

A year ago tomorrow, you took matters into your hands.

A year ago tomorrow, you left your family heart broken.

You left so many behind, a Mom, Dad, sisters, brothers, neices. nephews, a son, grandparents, cousins, friends, Aunts, Uncles.

A part of all of us were taken away when you left.

A part of all of us are waiting for us in Heaven.

So many times someone will do something and we'll say, "Jason used to do that."

We'll look at Jordan or Jesse and be reminded of how you looked.

You are another reason we long to go Home.

First day of pre school

2011-08-30T14:07:00.000-04:00

cool website

2011-08-28T00:25:00.000-04:00

Listia is a neat website I just found that allows you to bid on things for free! It's kinda like ebay, but free :) Check it out, and let me know what you think

Wondering....

2011-08-27T10:40:00.000-04:00

I'm trying to decide something, and I'd like others input.

It's coming up on the one year anniversary of Jason's death. It's hard to believe, but Sept 8th, he'll have been gone for one year.

The last week of Jason's life he spent a lot of time at the VW fair. One of my last memories of Jason is seeing him at the fairgrounds, and telling Alex to try a certain sandwich (Alex did...and he liked it)

I told myself I wasn't gonna go to the fair b/c I don't know how I'd handle it. I can remember the exact spot I saw Jason. My Grandpa Barnhart also loved the fair and spent a lot of time there while he was living.

Now I'm wondering if not going is right. Should I go for my kids? Nehemiah and Virginia would love it.

I know I can't stop my life because Jason stopped living.

What are YOUR thoughts? Would you go to the fair, or not?

Matthew 19:14

2011-08-22T17:20:00.001-04:00

But Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven.

my brother, Joseph took these pics for me :)

A day outside

2011-08-17T18:20:00.000-04:00

Time Poem

2011-08-09T12:08:00.000-04:00

To realize the value of one year:
Ask a student who has failed a final exam.

To realize the value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize the value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of one minute:
Ask the person who has missed the train, bus or
plane.

To realize the value of one-second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize the value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the
Olympics.

Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you
have. You will treasure
it even more when you can share it with someone
special.

I was thinking yesterday that in a month it'll be one year since Jason left us. Some days it seems like moments ago that I got the phone call. Other times it seems so long ago.

So much has changed in a year. My family added a little girl, Miss Jana Renee and a little boy, Mr. Titus River.

A year ago Virginia wasn't walking yet, now she thinks she's the Queen of our house.

Nehemiah seemed so big last year, but now he knows so much more. I've heard him counting higher, and singing his ABC's. In another year....he'll be starting pre-school.

Some days it seems like nothing much happens here, but I've realized that each day we're all learning something new.

I enjoy the little things in life, a clean load of laundry, a sleeping smiling baby, clean dishes, a freshly swept rug, a kiss from my kids, watching them help each other.

I'm trying to learn not to rush things.

New nephew

2011-08-06T15:11:00.000-04:00

I am an Aunt again.

Titus River Murray was born Wed Aug 3rd.

He weighed 7 pounds and 7 ounces

and is 20 inches long

Memories

2011-07-31T22:17:00.001-04:00

I don't know how many times my sisters and I would load up the car for a road trip and blast this song, or some song similar song. Sometimes we'd have friends with us, or maybe one of our brothers, sometimes it was just the three of us.

I have no idea what happened to my cd but, the memories are there.

We were blessed with parents who trusted us to travel. Whether it was to visit friends in West Virginia, or when we had a whirl wind weekend of skiing in Canada, or maybe a quick trip to Logan, Ohio, we always had fun.

I really don't remember fighting while we were on these trips, maybe the music was too loud??

Now Steve Curtis Chapman, Sanctus Real, and our "fun" music is replaced with VeggieTales.

But....would we trade it?

no thanks

a sweet summer treat

2011-07-31T16:25:00.000-04:00

Alex works in a hot factory for 12 hours a day.

Having a nice cool snack is nice to have, but Alex also likes to eat healthy.

So I've been getting fruit and making him a special treat.

I had make a fruit salad a few weeks ago and didn't want it to go bad.

In comes....

I poured some into the bottom of a zip lock baggie, put fruit on top, and put more Fruit Fresh on it.

Then....put it in the freezer! :) Alex said he really likes it!

Yesterday we went to Meijer and bought some fruit salad that was on sale, and I froze that, and now Alex has a cool snack for work :)

Just pics

2011-07-31T08:32:00.001-04:00

Just some photos I've edited recently :)

Thank you Lord

2011-07-15T21:26:00.000-04:00

Thank you Lord, for your blessings on me!

Nehemiah and Virgina are best of friends :)

Here's what happens when you're 3, tired and won't take a nap

My helper, washing the table for me! (Yeah, I washed it again after he was done)

Love these three!

Mommy, I want to be like you!!

Played with a couple pics

2011-07-12T20:20:00.000-04:00

A few pic of our newest baby

2011-07-12T14:58:00.000-04:00

What is more precious than a newborn?

I don't understand how people can look at a new life and not see that there is a God.

In such a short time this life is formed, and perfectly made.

Every part of this being is formed in His image. Not one hair is misplaced, not one this wrong with her.

Just as we should be with God, this child is totally dependent on her parents. She can't eat, drink, get dressed on her own.

Little by little she'll grow and little by little she'll make her own decisions. How she'll dress, what she'll eat, if she'll listen to her parents.

Where will these feet take her? Will they take her closer to the creator, or will she run from Him?

Kids

2011-07-11T22:18:00.000-04:00

Virginia had a song for us :)

Nehemiah tells me he wants his picture taken, and this is what I get.

Sisters

Welcome Baby Jana

2011-07-11T10:01:00.001-04:00

Wed July 6th I went into the hospital to get my penicillin started.

Everything was going well, so Alex went home to be with Nehemiah and Virginia. At 5 AM they started me on pitocin to start my contractions. I was having some but they weren't real strong.

They came in at 9:30 asking if I wanted my epidural. If I didn't get it done then, he was going to be doing a procedure that lasted 4 hours, and baby would be born before then. They sent Alex out while that was done (He'd gotten there a little before then) My OB came in soon after and my water was broken. He left to go to the office and the nurse was left in charge. She asked me to push once, then called in the other OB. He asked me to push once, and I knew something wasn't right. I was already on oxygen and suddenly there was a flurry of activity. They wanted my OB back and he was already gone, so he was called back. They started calling the anesthesiologist back STAT. He later told me that really freaked him out, knowing I'd already had an epidural he thought something was wrong with me. I asked to have Alex back in the room, but as he came in, they rushed me out.

They rushed me in to have a c-section. I could see her when she came out. She was completely white and not breathing. They started pumping oxygen into her. Total time without oxygen was between 13 and 14 mins.

I was told later that I had a prolapsed cord. Which basically means the cord was coming out before the baby.

I watched as she turned pink, then started to cry. They took her out to bathe her and once again I wanted to make sure Alex knew what was going on. He told me they informed him of what happened, then let him in the nursery with our new baby girl.

My OB told me that it was a miracle that everyone they needed was on the floor. The c-section team had just finished a c-section earlier, there were two anesthesiologists, and the other OB was on the floor. I know it was God keeping our little girl.

Alex picked the name Jana, which means God's Gracious gift. And Renee as a middle name, meaning: born again. Pretty fitting, hmm??

Jana Renee Magoulas

2011-07-09T20:53:00.000-04:00

It's true, my hands are full. :) But, my heart is as well. As of 10:10 AM July 7, 2011 I am a mother of three kids.

Both kids think she's great

Later I'll post the testimony of her birth.

Virginia informed us that this is HER baby!!!

Nehemiah had to give her kisses

Hello world! I'm here

Some pictures

2011-06-30T17:59:00.000-04:00

Pregnant?!

2011-06-23T17:04:00.001-04:00

Saw this on Leah's blog and decided to do it as well

About The Mother

Name?: Maria
Age?: 29

About The Father
Name?: Alexander
Age?: 28

About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?: no, my 3rd
When did you find out you were pregnant?: November 1, 2010
What was your first reaction?: shocked
Who was with you when you found out?: I was by myself, Alex was at work
Who was the first person you told?: Alex, we didn't tell anyone else until I was 16 weeks
How did your parents react?: My parents were thrilled. They had already figured out long before that I was pregnant, but I wasn't telling anyone
How far along are you?: 38 weeks!!!
What was your first symptom?: I just knew....
What is your due date?: July 7th
Do you know the sex of the baby?: Having a little girl
Have you picked out names?: Hahaha....kinda
If so, what are they?: Not telling
How much weight have you gained?: 25 pounds. My nurse tells me that's perfect, I feel like that's alot. At least it's less than I gained with Nehemiah
Do you have stretch marks?:Hahahaha I prefer to call them battle scars
Have you felt the baby move?: all the time
Have you heard the heartbeat?: Many times. I think it sounds like a horse race, or a dog barking
Home or hospital birth?: Hospital
Natural or medicated birth?: Planning on an epidural
Who will be in the delivery room with you?: Just my husband! (Well...and the doctors and nurses)
Will you breastfeed?: we'll see
Do you think you'll need a c-section?: No need for one
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?: I did with the other two...giving birth is very emotional
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?: Hi "baby's name"
Would you let someone videotape the birth?: no way
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?:ready is a better word. Hahahaha I know what to expect, so I'm not scared. I'm nervous about being a mother of three.

Weird Mom

2011-06-22T14:19:00.000-04:00

Nehemiah was running in the house, something he's not supposed to be doing, and tripped. He fell and hurt his bottom. Him and I had this conversation afterwards.

Me: oh, no!! Your bottom fell off!!

Nehemiah: It did?!

Me: Yeah, we'll have to go to the store to get you a new one.

N: Ok

Me: Do you want a big one, or a little one?

N: a little one.

Me: Ok, we'll get you a little bottom.

N: (Reaching around to see what his pants feel like without a bottom in them) It's there Mom!!! It's in my underwear!!!!

Kids make me laugh so much! I could have yelled at him for running in the house, I could have said "I told you so" But...he knew he'd done wrong, and he was hurting, why not lighten the mood?

Live like I was dying...

2011-06-21T15:28:00.002-04:00

Today Stephanie and I were texting back and forth. We were talking about hanging laundry on the line (Yup....we lead exciting lives here in Van Wert), and I told her that at the beginning of the season I had to buy a new rope for our clothesline after the neighbor kids broke ours.

I said that it really upset me when I bought it. Not because I was spending the money, but I couldn't stop thinking about Jason.

The same was true after my Grandpa Barnhart died, I couldn't get to an intersection without stopping much longer than needed.

I no longer cry every time I think of their deaths, but I do still miss them.

I don't dwell on how they died, but how they lived.

I can't dwell on how they died.

They are both still talked about. We didn't bury them then forget them.

I started to think, how will I be remembered when I'm gone?

Will my kids think I was too busy for them?

Did I think more of the mess they were making, and not the fun they were having?

Am I too worried about their clothes dirty to let them do what they were wanting to do?

Did I not have people over because they might see dust on my pictures?

Was I too busy to blow bubbles with the kids?

Too busy trying to stay dry to stop and dance in the rain?

Was I too worried about raising the perfect kids, that I corrected when I should have listened? Or just reminded myself that they are still kids?

Was there times I should have said "ok" instead of "No way!"

Were there times I was wanting to get the perfect picture to stop and enjoy the moment?

Was I too busy trying to LOOK right, to LIVE right?

Like our kids, God wants our time, He wants US, not our spotless house.

Too often we want to talk ABOUT someone, rather than talk to them.

How will you be remembered?

To infinity.....

2011-06-19T22:38:00.000-04:00

We had 4 Buzz LightYears' in the house tonight

Happy 3rd!

2011-06-18T09:42:00.000-04:00

Three years ago my world changed. I became a Mom to a wonderful little boy.

It's so much fun watching him grow up and learn new things. He loves counting, and singing, he doesn't know a stranger. He still loves anything to do with Toy Story. He tells his Dad, sister and I "I love you very much!" Or sometimes, "I love you to the moon!!" He's a great big brother to Virginia and I can't wait to see how he does with his new sister! :)

Happy 3rd Handsome man!

Birthdays

2011-06-15T10:56:00.001-04:00

“The good die young - because they see it's no use living if you've got to be good” John Barrymore

This reminds me of Jason so much. I remember him coming home from school and running around and around and around my parents house. Mom finally asked him WHY he was doing that! Did he have candy? What?

He looked at her completely serious and said, "I was good all day at school, I have to be bad now"

Tomorrow would have been Jason's 20th birthday. But forever in our minds, he'll be 19.

Jason was born in 1991, on a Sunday morning. This Sunday morning happened to be Father's Day, and my parents anniversary. I remember my parents dropping us off at Grandma and Grandpa Barnhart's house on their way to Fort Wayne. There had been a few times of false labor, but this time it was real. We went from 4 kids...to 5.

smiley360.com—Be Heard. Be Happy.

2011-06-12T22:58:00.000-04:00

smiley360.com—Be Heard. Be Happy.

Fort Wayne Zoo

2011-06-06T22:55:00.000-04:00

Alex and I had been wanting to take the kids to the zoo, but we were waiting til it wasn't going to rain (So we waited awhile)

We told Nehemiah Monday night we were going to go to the zoo in the morning and his face lit up! He started talking about the animals he was going to see.

Our little tour guide was showing Virginia the zebras

Every year Alex and Nehemiah get their picture taken in this tent, and 2011 was no exception.

We tried to add Virginia to the picture but she wanted to go back to the stroller.

Here I am looking very pregnant.

Can you tell which little girl was excited about riding a train?!

They thought this kangaroo was neat.

Nehemiah said that this time the giraffes were his favorite. I think Virginia liked feeding the birds her popcorn the best. I'm not sure which animal was her favorite, she seemed to like it all.

Both kids did great, they were happy the whole time. I don't know if we'll get back there this year, with BabyT making her appearance soon.

Get paid

2011-06-05T17:20:00.000-04:00

Get paid to take surveys. I started few months ago and have almost $20. An easy and quick way to make a little extra money

Jason....

2011-05-30T22:12:00.001-04:00

Vince put this video on Facebook of Jason

It's nice to know that the Jesus Jason was singing about is now his comfort. God is more compassionate than we are. He's more forgiving. How many times have we been mad at someone so long that we no longer no why we were mad in the first place? Take the time today to forgive them. We aren't promised tomorrow.

Knowing

2011-05-25T13:38:00.000-04:00

Do you remember the moments that changed your life?

I do.

I remember the moment I knew my Grandma was really dying. Mom had been going over to their house every night, and I finally asked my Dad why she hadn't been at work. He told me Grandma wasn't doing well. I was 17, it was a Monday night, we were in front of a cubicle by the entrance. It was then that I knew. I saw her the next day. The day she died. I didn't tell her good bye b/c I knew it was the last time I'd ever see her, but I couldn't do it.

Nov 7, 2006 I walked in the front door after getting a bunch of phone calls from different people. Jesse told me, "There was an accident, Grandpa and Evelyn died" When I fell to the ground, it was Jason who picked me (and my purse) up.

I was at Kewpee when I got a text that Josh had died.

I was at my kitchen sink when Mom called to tell me that Jason died. I can still hear her voice, I can hear her screams. I remember what she said to me. I grabbed both kids and drove like a wild person to my parents house. I didn't realize until much later that I never took my apron off. The next few days were a blur, but I won't forget the moment I knew.

As bad as those memories are, I knew the moment I was a child of the King. I'd gone to the alter, just to the right of the pulpit. I cried, I had snot coming out of my nose, and no tissues around! I felt a huge hand on my back but didn't stop crying out to God to see who it was. I remember Bro Lonnie telling me that I needed to get baptized.

I knew the moment that they put Nehemiah in my arms, that I would never be the same, I knew I'd fight the world to protect this little boy, and I'd love him no matter what.

The moment I held Virginia that life was going to be different with two. I had my Prince, I now had my Princess.

I can't wait for the moment that I'm the Mom of three!

May

2011-05-19T10:53:00.000-04:00

Family Picture May 2011

Do you like V's non-matching footwear? This girl LOVES shoes!! She prefers her boots, but she isn't too picky on what's on her feet. She also has to have her hair done before going anywhere. Oh...and at least a necklace. She also loves bracelets.

Nehemiah is doing great at potty training, but now he's decided that he needs THREE coins when he goes. He gets one for going, and if he tells us he needs to go without our prompting, he gets two coins...but he's decided he needs three. At least he can count, right? ;)

An Award!

2011-05-10T08:25:00.000-04:00

My friend Lindsey gave me an award, I think the first blog award I've ever gotten.

With this award I am to tell you seven facts about myself, and pass the award onto 7 others!

1. Growing up I wanted to be a high school math teacher. Until I was a senior in high school. It was then I decided I was done with school and wanted to be a stay at home Mom like my Mom was when we were growing up.

2. Without my glasses or contacts I'm basically blind

3. I still own the first car I bought. The cars I drove before my Hyundai were given to me. The mailman gave me a '79 Lincoln Continental, which my parents traded in for an Intrepid. I took over the payments when I was out of school....but my parents paid for most of it.

4. I'm pregnant with my 3rd child, but newborns make me nervous. I love when they aren't as fragile. I don't like feeling like I'm going to break them.

5. Growing up, my sisters and I traveled a lot, but the only time I was out of the country was the times I went to Canada.

6. Virginia is a very girly-girl. She loves necklaces, bracelets, bows, shoes, purses. But I don't know where she got it. Alex guesses from my Grandma Barnhart. I only wear my wedding set. Necklaces make me feel like I'm choking.

7. I feel prettiest when my eyebrows and nails are done, two things that haven't happened in a long time.

I chose:

1. My sister, Stephanie at The Buckeye Calderon (Now she has to update...right?)

2. Becca at Holsapple Family

3. Jeshanah at Jeshanah's somewhat Amazing Adventures

4. Sue at two kids and some babies

5. Leah at Baby Belgium

6. Andrew and Natasha at Us four, Adventures Galore!

7. Jeni at The Agape Tree

Today

2011-05-04T21:08:00.000-04:00

31 weeks! Not much new pregnancy-wise. I still feel huge, but baby has dropped, YAY!! :) So I don't look quite as big!
Kids are both silly.
Nehemiah was in trouble this morning. I was getting frustrated with him b/c I'd told him to get dressed, but he was too busy playing. When I finally raised my voice he said, "Please don't be mad at me, Mom" How can you stay mad then??

Virginia earlier was throwing a fit and it much have annoyed her...so she put herself into the corner!!

We went to WalMart earlier to pick up a couple things and as soon as we walked in, Virginia yelled, "Need money!!"

I had the kids in the tub tonight and told them when they got out they could have a Popsicle. Nehemiah forgot and went to get himself a banana, but Virginia wouldn't forget that Popcicle! She stood under the freezer door yelling, "no, Nehemiah!! No banana!! Popcicle!"

Cleaning house!!!

2011-04-26T20:51:00.000-04:00

A MAJOR project that I worked on this weekend, was the kids rooms! Alex helped by having someone get the spare bed out of V's room. Once it was out....the work began! I organized clothes, cleaned out her cubby, threw out trashed, and got things ready for the new baby!

Alex got some hardware to hang up the canopy above V's bed. Princess2 has a purple canopy that my Mom bought her.

Here are some of her toys, I'm not sure why I have a chair in with them....I really do need to take that out.

A shelf above her bed. Amazingly, she doesn't mess with it :)

Nehemiah's room!

His room was clean, and his bed was made, but as you can see...he was in his room when I took the pic...and had been for awhile, so neither was the way it should be, oh well. :)

I moved the location of his slide, it's no longer out in the open, it's by his window. There is enough room for a little body to get onto the slide. Neither kid has complained about the location.

His bookshelf, kind of organized.

One of the projects Alex worked on last Friday. He tilled around my lilac bush! Tore down that horrible fencing that was around it, and put this box around it, and got mulch for it, and put three stepping stones. He said the stones represent our three kids.

Easter 2011

2011-04-25T14:49:00.000-04:00

So, how was your Easter? Mine was....well, typical of being a Mom.

I got the kids dressed for Easter, cute hats, new outfits (new to them....Nehemiah's came from Once Upon a Child, and Mom bought V's at a Mom to Mom sale)

We get to church with no incidents, kids are happy, we find a seat and sit down. Singing along to song service, I tell myself, "You should take V downstairs to go to the bathroom" (she's been working on potty training, her idea) Right as I think this....I feel warmth. Wet warmth.

Siss and I go downstairs and I get her changed. I knew I was done with church for the day, I couldn't wash this off and be comfortable.

We head home. Changed, get the kids to bed, and I take a nap. Get up, get food around for the cook out we're going to have at Nicole's house.

We get there and Mom wanted to know if I had my camera, I did, of course. After she asked if I'd take a picture of all 5 Grandkids, I lined them up only to see, I didn't have a memory card!

I put two pics on the internal memory, but didn't have enough room to take pics of the kids looking for candy.

Stephanie came up with a lesson before sending the kids to find the candy. They were told that God sent His son Jesus, to find His treasures, just like we put treasure for the kids to find. The kids loved finding the toys, bubbles, and candy!

Love

2011-04-23T10:30:00.000-04:00

I love being a Mom. Kid are so entertaining. This morning I told the kids that my brother, Jordan, was here, and Virginia looked at me and said, "no no no no no!!" I guess because she couldn't see him, he wasn't there (I'd heard his truck...that's how I knew he was here)

Virginia has started saying, "I love you" And Nehemiah has switched from "I love you" to "I love you very much!!!"

I had turned on the song "Cinderella" by Steven Curtis Chapman, and Virginia went up to Alex and wanted to dance!! <3

Spring cleaning?

2011-04-22T20:25:00.000-04:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhh a clean house!!! Almost...

Alex and I have been super busy getting this house de-cluttered and clean! Alex got A LOT of yard work done! He rototilled around my lilac bush, and put a wooden square around it, and mulched it!! Now you can see the bush, and not the fence (which he tore down!!) behind it, and all the clutter and trash it collected! Yay!! :)

He also got stuff down from the garage that was left from the previous owners!

We both worked on our walk in closet to get it clean, got rid of the spare bed we had in V's room, and got her room all clean and ready for BabyGirl! Just need to get the crib put up....and the house is ready for her! :) (There are a few things we need to get, but they can wait til she's here)

I cleaned out tons of the kids toys and got them ready for a garage sale.

We are taking a load of junk to the dump tomorrow, and clothes and such are going to GoodWill!!

It feels SO NICE to have the house clean, and it's funny to see Alex so excited about it!

Now...I'm ready for chocolate. Maybe Rocky Road ice cream??

Naturally Sweet

2011-04-21T17:55:00.000-04:00

It's so nice to be able to wear short sleeves!!!!

Can you guess.....

2011-04-20T13:45:00.000-04:00

Can you guess what Nehemiah's wearing? Apparently we don't have enough toys for him.

Daniels Grandkids

2011-04-17T16:56:00.000-04:00

Ummmm....I noticed a pattern here....Our little girl will be the next Grandchild, then Nicole and Mike's. I have a kid every other time! This is a trend I do not plan to keep!

2011-04-08T16:52:00.000-04:00

The other day I was feeling kinda sad b/c my husband talked to one of my old bosses, and the man asked my husband if I still dressed "plain" when my hubby asked what he meant, he said "You know, long hair, long skirts" And I thought to myself, "Was that all I was?? hair and skirts??" Then today a little girl asked me if I was a Princess. I smiled and laughed (what was I supposed to do? She caught me off guard) She asked her Mom, "Is that girl a Princess?" And her mom told her "Yes, she is a Princess" She then explained to me that her daughter thinks anyone wearing a skirt is a Princess. And I realized, yes, I am a Princess, God is my King, and I am HIS Princess!!

Jason

2011-04-07T19:26:00.000-04:00

"I thought of you today, but that is nothing new
I thought of you yesterday and days before that too.

I think of you in silence, I often speak your name,
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame.

Your memory is my keepsake, with which I'll never part
God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart."

Love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening,

but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love.

It can't take away our memories either.

In the end, life is stronger than death.”

When you were born,

you were crying and everyone else was smiling.
Live your life so that when you die,

you are smiling, and everyone else is crying.

Jason is still missed, of course.

Once in awhile Nehemiah will mention him. I don't try to stop him from knowing about Jason, or stop him from talking about him.

He's told me before that Jason was outside out window and wanted him to play, then Nehemiah tried to go out the front door. Oh, did I mention it was snowing, and there was ice on the ground?!

Yesterday I got up with Nehemiah pretty early, so we laid on the couch and I held him. All the sudden he says, "Who is that little guy?

Me: What little guy?

N: Oh, It's Jason.

Me: Jason is here? Where? On that chair? pointing at the chair by the door which has a side table by it

N: No, he's on the table motioning toward side table

Me: He's on the table?

N: Yes. Oh, Jason never went golfing. But, he has to go eat supper now.

Nehemiah later told Alex that Jason never went golfing and he looked so sad when he said it.

Was Jason there? I don't know. I do believe that Jason does visit us, and he might even be Nehemiah's guardian angel. He loved his nieces and nephews a lot.

But what is even more exciting than Nehemiah seeing Jason, is that I know someday I will see Jason. We'll never part, and we WILL be eating supper at the Marriage table.

Video

2011-04-02T14:18:00.000-04:00

A Video my Dad made in memory of Jason. Just a warning:You'll need tissues, it's a tear jerker. It's still a shock to me that he's really truly gone

I am a Space Ranger....

2011-03-30T21:24:00.000-04:00

Hard

2011-03-30T16:24:00.000-04:00

Sometimes it's hard being a Mom.

You have this child and want to protect him/her from all of the pains in the world. But you can't.

You watch them learn to walk, only to see them fall.

You tell them not to do something (or to do something) and it's up to you to correct them when they don't listen.

You have them rely on you completely, and watch as they no longer need you.

You watch as they get sick and you can't do anything to help them feel better.

You see them hurt, cry, need, and want.

But you always watch as they learn right from wrong.

As they steady themselves and take off walking, with no looking back.

You see the joy in their faces as they do what they were told, and you shower them with praise.

As they learn about God, and say their prayers the first time, it's your heart that swells with pride.

When they learn to share, to talk, to count, and all the other daily skills they need, you know you are doing your job right.

Don't forget

2011-03-28T14:46:00.000-04:00

Some of...

2011-03-28T12:59:00.000-04:00

Some of Virginia's many faces

My family laughs at the many faces Miss Virginia makes.

She always lets you know JUST what she is thinking!

She's developed a love for the camera!

I can't pull my phone or camera out around her, or this is what I get!

Just a day....

2011-03-24T18:41:00.000-04:00

At the park!

Yes, last week it was nice enough for the kids to go to the park!

The kids all love a park here in town, Smiley Park. It has a children's garden, the normal park (with 3 different play centers!) different pavilions if you feel like taking a lunch, not to mention picnic tables in the garden. There is a duck pond, which right now doesn't have any ducks, obviously.

The garden area has a place to take pictures but right now it's covered up.

There is a cute little "Winnie the Pooh" part of the garden, with a sand pit, and Pooh's thinking spot, Pooh's house, Tigger's bouncing spot, and other cute things

Nehemiah isn't a fan of the sand pit, but Virginia and Micah really like it!

Photoshoot

2011-03-15T11:20:00.000-04:00

Yesterday I decided to try and get some good pictures of the kids. I take a lot of pictures of them, but they're normally just clicking away.

I think they're a little too used to having their pics taken. Nehemiah kept trying to pose himself, which resulted in a lot of over-posed pictures.

As you can tell, I was bothering Virginia as she tried to read her book.

My daughter is a little bit of a ham...

He kept wanting to put his hands up.

"Cheese, Mom?! Ok, I'll cheese!!" (The cheese went well with her ham)

A good picture of both kids, Yay!! :)

She was so excited to see the picture of a baby in her book! One of her favorite words is currently, Baby!

Right now BabyGirl is measuring a little small. I'm almost 24 weeks, and she's measuring about 23. I'm due July 7th! :)

Tomorrow Alex turns 28! So crazy to think that 5 years ago I didn't even know this man. We met on my 25th birthday! So very much has changed in the short time I've known him! Can't wait to spend the next 28 years with him! (And many more!)

Baby belly

2011-03-09T22:17:00.001-05:00

Know how some women have a baby "bump" not me...apparently my girls are big babies.

When I was pregnant for Nehemiah I didn't show til I was about 7 months along. And, silly me, I was sad. I wanted to look pregnant! I wanted people to know, "I'm having a baby!!"

When Nehemiah was 7 months old, I was pregnant with his sister. I didn't want to be big. Sure, I still liked being pregnant, I was excited about number two. But people can be so mean. I dreaded the, "How close are they going to be in age?" with a look of disgust from people. Or, "Don't you know what causes that?" Or any number of other rude comments people would make. They hurt.

This time around, I didn't tell I was pregnant until I was 16 weeks (I wanted to wait til I was 20 weeks and knew the gender...but after Nicole announced she was going to be having a baby, I also announced) My family was thrilled. Alex and I are thrilled. I know when she comes, my kids will be thrilled.

I didn't start telling people until I was 20 weeks. Part of it was the fun in keeping the secret. Part was I didn't want to hear the comments. And, yes, I did hear them. I bite my tongue and smile. I love my kids. All three will be loved and spoiled by Alex and I. Yes, there are a few things we need to get for her, but we are not going to be financially hurting because we're having a baby.

I have another appt on Tuesday. I need to ask for sure what my due date is. They've told me the 13th of July, and the 7th. So I go with the 13th, knowing my kids have both come late so far. But still say that I'm 23 weeks along. ;)

So far I haven't had too many problems. I do have low blood pressure which means I have dizzy spells and I need to make sure I am eating foods with salt to keep my sodium up. As long as I eat enough and I don't over do it I seem to do ok. But days that I get too busy to eat, or do too much I start to hurt.

Counting down the weeks til our little girl is here!

My kids

2011-03-03T17:40:00.002-05:00

Revelations 21:5

2011-03-02T11:13:00.001-05:00

And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.

Many people know how much we've struggled with Virginia's skin. We've tried creams, lotions, soaps, vitamins, doing nothing, wrapping her hands so she couldn't scratch, buying different pajamas, putting bleach in her bath water.

I think this was when her skin was the worst

I'd taken her to the doctor, who sent her on to the dermatologist. What lovely news did they have for me? She'll outgrow it. I wouldn't accept that. My little girl was in pain.

They gave me steroids for her, something else I was not comfortable with.

on top of her dry skin, she'd also gotten a sun burn.

I'd taken her up for prayer, I'd researched. It would start to clear up, but her skin would still be dry.

Last summer she'd gotten a sun burn, which helped clear up her skin for awhile, but wasn't a permanent solution.

Many people would suggest different creams, lotions, soaps, but nothing helped. Each cream and such seemed to only upset her. She'd only scratch more.

Along with her beautiful face being dry, her hands looked terrible. They were swollen and cracked. Sadly, I called them Monster hands b/c they looked so painful.

Her legs were also dry. Putting tights and jeans on them would stop her from scratching. Skirts and dresses were not an option for her to wear, she'd very quickly start scratching.

Many nights I'd cry as I'd look at her skin and know she was in pain.

One night as I sat in my chair I kept getting colder and colder. When I checked the thermostat, it was set at 63. We keep it at 71. I don't know what caused it to get set to 63, but I started to think about it. Both kids rooms are upstairs. I know Virginia gets really warm in her sleep and sweats. I turned the heat down to 67 that night. The very next day, her skin started to look smoother! As the days and weeks went past, her skin became less dry.

Soon she started to look totally different.

Not only was her skin no longer dry, it was smooth! Her hands were clear! Her legs are doing better, but as before, when she's upset, she scratches them.

Who knew that by turning our heat down, her skin would change? I believe the dry heat in her room was what was bothering her. I no longer put gloves on her hands to let her sleep.

To some it may not be a big deal, but to our family, we still haven't gotten over how wonderful this blessing is!

2011-03-01T21:26:00.000-05:00

Don't have a lot to say, but that's ok, right? :)

I'm almost 22 weeks along in my pregnancy, excited to meet my little girl!

I think Virginia will love having a baby around. There isn't a day that goes by that she isn't carrying a doll baby around, and she is constantly talking about babies!

Nehemiah has always loved babies, although he's always wanting to kiss and "pet" them, so I have to keep a close eye on him!

Virginia is doing well with learning her body parts. She's doing well with her nose, belly, eyes, and hair. Then she decides she's done showing off. She learns new words everyday!

Nehemiah loves anything to do with Toy Story and many days he is Buzz Lightyear. Thankfully he's stopped jumping off things!

Both kids still get along really well, but there are days that they both bug each other.

In this picture Nehemiah is wearing my Grandpa Barnhart's hat, and Virginia is wearing my Grandpa Barnhart's necklace :)

Ahhhhhhhh love

2011-02-14T15:31:00.000-05:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

Last Friday Nehemiah had Micah and Adaliah over to celebrate the holiday of love. :) And, that was the extent of celebrating we did for V-day. ;) Not that I don't celebrate love, but Alex does little things for me all the time, buying me a new shirt, taking me out to dinner, going to the store for me when I don't feel like it (HA) So we don't need a specific day to tell us to tell each other we love one another.

But I still thought it would be fun for the kids. I was surprised how much they seems to like the coloring pages! Micah was excited to see I had printed Star Wars for him, Adaliah had Dora, Virginia got My Little Pony and Nehemiah had Toy Story :)

Here is Miss V, isn't she beautiful?! :)

Poor Miah wasn't feeling too well that day, but still enjoyed having them over :)

Micah found all kinds of things to amuse himself

And Adaliah decided my house just wasn't clean enough ;)

Next year we'll have another little girl to help us celebrate Valentine's Day :) Alex and I went to the hospital today to see if we needed to stock up on more pink or more blue. The beginning to middle of July the Magoulas Family will be expanding to a 3 child family. We're very excited :)

Addy

2011-02-10T14:15:00.001-05:00

I was reading Stephanie's blog post After Affects of Joy in the Journey and decided to add some pics of Adaliah. :)

Before Christmas we were at Nicole's and the kids decorated Christmas cookies

Here is a current picture of the Calderon Family

Adaliah with her cousins Jadyn and Nehemiah. Virginia and Micah hadn't gotten there yet, or there would have been a picture of all 5 grandkids.

Anyone want a kiss from Adaliah?! ;)

Opening gifts! :)

Christmas Day

Love this picture of her

Giveaway

2011-02-08T11:20:00.001-05:00

Here is a great giveaway! Go to Sage and Savvy to sign up! :)

Nehemiah's new Love

2011-01-26T15:53:00.000-05:00

Just life

2011-01-13T15:52:00.001-05:00

The past few days have been good days.

After MUCH trial and error, I finally figured out how to help Virginia's face. And, it won't cost me a thing, actually, it will save me money! I needed to turn the heat down!! The dry heat was bothering her skin! Once I realized it, I turned the heat down 4 degrees. I realized it Sunday night while Alex was at work, and by Monday morning, I could already tell a difference! In a matter of days she went from looking like this:

To this:

Every time I looked at her face Monday I was amazed! Her legs are clear (just a little dry) and her arms are healing nicely. She'd dug them up Saturday night. Now I no longer bundle her up and cover her hands at night. Sunday I was a tad nervous as I put her in tights, pants, and a T-SHIRT, I thought she'd tear at her arm, but, she didn't touch it!! And she hasn't yet! Thank you Jesus for healing my little girl!

Tuesday it started snowing at 8 Am, and didn't let up all day. The kids had lots of fun keeping busy!

Dad popped them popcorn:

Nehemiah played in the snow:

If only I could get him to stop EATING the snow! It's not super bad that he eats it, but it does gross me out that he takes the snow from the bottom of his boots and eats that!

That night he helped with super:

The next day, breakfast was different than other days:

Yeah, I gave them cupcakes! Neither one ate the whole thing. I think it was too much of a sugar rush!

Last night I took the kids to Stephanie's house to let them play with Adaliah. Virginia tried her hand at singing, she kinda liked it ;)

Hope everyone is having a great week!

Sissy walking

2011-01-11T15:24:00.000-05:00

Virginia likes walking places, but she still does a little waddle thing that's super cute!

Love

2011-01-11T12:42:00.000-05:00

Just a Picture of each of my kids :)

2011, time for changes

2011-01-07T11:29:00.000-05:00

Who else thought 2010 went too quickly?! Raise your hands! Of course there were some days that drug. There were sad days, happy days, days of joy watching my kids grow, days of sadness knowing what Jason missed.

I watch Virginia walking around and realize, my little girl is no longer a baby, she really is a toddler. She's still unsure of walking, she does that waddling thing that is so cute. But she's so adventurous that I know before long she'll be running along with Nehemiah, Adaliah, and Micah. She loves carrying dolls with her as she follows me, and I catch glimpses of the mother she'll someday be. She does like to steal the toy bottles that the baby dolls have though, need to work on that one. I'm not sure why she does that, she hasn't had a bottle since before she was one!

Nehemiah talks all the time! He loves watching Toy Story 3, which he refers to as "New Toys movie" He loves taking care of his little sister! Every night he prays for her, and gives her a kiss before telling her night-night! His toys are over-taking the house and I can't wait til it's garage sale time so I can get rid of some!! I already have a box and bag ready to get rid of with more to sort through!

Well, that's all for now, Nehemiah is sitting on my lap making it hard to type on here!

Holidays 2010

2010-12-29T20:58:00.000-05:00

Nehemiah and Virginia had a wonderful Christmas! They were spoiled by Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents, and their parents!!

We bought Nehemiah a Thomas tent! He's had a lot of fun with it so far!

Of course out of all the toys he got, he seems to like the one that cost the least. I'd gotten a Woody (off Toy Story) that has a Sheriff star, belt and Woody figure.

Nehemiah was spoiled with a Lightening McQueen radio/cd player from GrandMom and GG, a train set from his Aunts and Uncles, and another train set from his Grandma and Grandpa Magoulas. Cousins Betty and James got his a stick horse and horse decals for his room! His Uncle Joseph bought him a target set, and he got many other gifts that have slipped my mind. He is a very blessed little boy!!

Virginia had a lot of fun opening gifts this year!! She also got a radio/cd player from GrandMom and GG. Her's is Hello Kitty. She got dolls from aunts and uncles, and an Elmo from grandma and Grandpa Magoulas. We bought Sissy a LeapFrog phone that counts. Cousins Betty and James got her a BuildABear cat that's so cute!

All the kids got jammies from GrandMom and GG, here is Nehemiah modeling his. He now has three Buzz Lightyear pajamas. Which is good, b/c that's about all that he wants to wear!!

Micah loved opening gifts, which is good, he had plenty to open!

The Murray Family 2010

The Calderon Family 2010

Jadyn turned one on Christmas Day! From what I hear, he really likes the horse his Daniels' family got him.

I wasn't able to get a pic of all 5 grandkids :( Hopefully soon I will!!

I love this picture of Miss Adaliah Ruth!

Virginia has had a lot of fun with Nehemiah's toys. She's teething and found a pacifier, that's why she's chewing on it, this isn't a normal thing for her. Poor girl is getting molars. :( Plus with this dry weather, her skin is cracking.

And now...for some food pics! :)

My kids!

2010-12-15T11:23:00.000-05:00

Time for an update wouldn't you say??

And the title of the website is directed to my kids....so I say it's time to write about them! :)

Nehemiah is 30 months old, or 2 1/2! He's a joy to my everyday. He does have his moments of being a typical two year old though.

He's loving this snowy weather and constantly cracks me up with his new phrases! Just last night I told him to follow me out of the room and he yelled "Yes Sir!!!" Sometimes I wonder where he comes up with some things he says! He informed me this morning that "Daddy works to buy pizza!!" So, how could we not have pizza tonight? ;)

He told me the other day, "This is how you make a silly face, take my picture!"

When he grows up he'll either be a dentist, or...

a singer! ;)

He still remembers his Uncle Jason (thought you'd get a post without mention, hmm? Sorry) I put his boots on him the other day and told him we were going to GrandMom and GG's house. He said, "And see Jason?!" I told him, "No, Jason went bye-bye" He matter-of-factly told me "Oh, he's at work!"

He's a boy of many hats!

Sissy is getting bigger too!

She'll be 14 months next Wed!

She talks all the time now! Somethings, I don't think I want her saying. Yesterday she told my Mom's dog to "shut up!" Ack!!

She thinks little sisters rock ;)

Virginia has taken some steps, but only when Jesse is at the end of the walk!

They love each other very much! It's great when they play together, and I love it when Nehemiah says, "I love you Ginya Hope!" He loves to say her prayers with her at night!!

Whoops

2010-11-22T19:02:00.002-05:00

WoW, where has the time gone? It's been over a month since I've put anything on here. Not that I don't have things to say, but, more like, there is nothing exciting enough to sit down and write about.

Thursday we'll celebrate Thanksgiving. To some it's about the turkey, others it's the football, maybe it's the extra time off work.

I've watched as some on facebook made their status' about what they are thankful for this month. I'd thought about doing that, but I didn't. It's not that I'm not thankful, or I don't care, I just....didn't.

And I am thankful.

I'm thankful for God's love and salvation.

I'm thankful for my little family, and my big family. I love that I know I can call them when I'm sad, happy, in need, or just need an ear to talk to.

I love my church family. They've welcomed Alex and I into their families.

I'm thankful for a house, with a low payment.

I'm thankful that our cars are paid off and our appliances run well (well, except for the dryer that burns Alex's shirts!)

I'm thankful that I have in-laws that care for us, and we don't have the "classic in-law" problems of hating each other.

I'm thankful that my husband has a good job that allows me to stay home with my kids.

But this year, I'm most thankful for the time I DID have with my family members that are gone. I had a good relationship with both my grandparents. I can think back of when they were here and smile, knowing that we were close.

I'm thankful that I knew Josh and even though he was taken from us too soon, we had a friendly relationship.

And I'm thankful for Jason. Right now I still cannot talk about him, think about him, or even write about him without tears, but I loved him. He was a special boy to me. Mom let me "help" raise the boys, and Jason was the first one. I didn't "raise" him as much as I did the other two (especially Jesse) but to a 10 y/o I thought I was big stuff taking care of him.

Jason knew we loved him, and could turn to us in his times of need, and I'm thankful that I know that.

In his last week here, he'd texted me telling me things that had upset him, and I'm glad he did. Not so I knew his problems, but so I had a peace that it wasn't something I had or had not done.

This Thanksgiving, I'm thankful for peace.

Virginia Hope will be one!!

2010-10-21T08:39:00.000-04:00

It's hard to believe that one year ago, Virginia Hope Magoulas was not here!! I was still waddling around waiting until her time to be here. We hadn't picked out her name yet. Was she going to be Virginia Hope, or Hadassah Hart?! Would she have hair or be bald? How much would she weigh?

The doctor had set up and appt to induce our precious bundle so at 5 AM on Thursday Oct 22, 2009 Alex and I woke up and got ready to go to the hospital. Nehemiah was spending the night at GrandMom's house.

When we got to the hospital, I was already in labor!! In fact, they had to slow labor b/c she was coming too fast!

The doctor had set appts to do some c-sections so I waited...and waited and waited. I finally called the nurses station and told them she was coming!! Within 10 mins of the doctor being in the room, our baby had entered the world!!

Virginia Hope has brought so many smiles to our lives. She's a happy little girl who knows what she wants!! She has her favorite person, Jesse!!

Happy 1st Birthday Virginia

We love you

Happy 50th

2010-10-13T14:52:00.000-04:00

Monday my Mom had a birthday! She turned...50!

I know better than to post a pic...she wouldn't be happy *whisper* they're on my Facebook...just look there ;)

She had the day off b/c of Columbus day and spent most of it with her family! (And some good friends from high school!)

I started to think that 21 years ago, my Mom was my age.

At that time she had an 8 year old (me), a 6 year old (stephanie), a 4 year old (Nicole) and Joseph was going to be 3 in Dec.

So much has changed since then.

Mom went on to have 3 more boys! Jason was born in '91, Jordan in '94 and Jesse in '96

In '99 My Mom's Mom last her fight with cancer.

Not long after that my Dad was laid off when his factory was sold.

While Dad was in school, Mom went back to work. Soon after Dad was out of school, Stephanie got married, in Aug of '06.

Nov 7, 2006 Mom's Dad died in a car accident.

Nicole was married in March of '07 and I was married in July of '07.

Jan 2, 2008 Mom was no longer just a Mom...she was now a GrandMom!! Her first grandchild was born. Within two years, she had 4 grandchildren!!

Dec '08 One of Mom's favorite nephew's was murdered.

In March of 2010 Mom went back to work.

May 31, 2010 Mom called me sobbing, one of her Frenchies had died.

By June of 2010, 5 of Mom's 7 kids had graduated high school!! At this time, all three girls were gone, and she had all 4 boys still living in the house.

Sept 8, 2010, Mom's 5th child, Jason, died.

Through all the losses and hurts, my Mom had never grown bitter, never blamed God.

She's been a rock to our family.

We know that our Mom will not judge us, but always love us, no matter what mistakes we make.

My prayer for my parents, is no more hurts, no more losses.

I have learned

2010-10-04T17:32:00.000-04:00

I've learned I'm stronger than I thought.

A peice of me was taken when Jason's life was ended, but it has drawn my family closer, not torn us apart.

I have learned to not let the little things bother me.

I hug my kids more, kiss them when I can.

I treasure my family and thank God for them.

I'm learning to bite my tongue when it's needed, and speak my mind when I should.

I listen to what people say to each other, and think, "don't you know that doesn't matter?! Why are you saying that?! Why would you hurt someone like that and not care?"

I dread going to WalMart,

Little things make me cry, who knew pumping gas could bring tears to my eyes? Or seeing a shirt Jason would have liked?

Just saying "I was the oldest of seven" Breaks my heart.

This is the picture that will go on the marker. Lookin at it makes me sad.

I have alot of pics of Jason, and the most recent ones, he looked so sad. Getting him to smile was hard.

This post was supposed to be a happy one! About what is new in my life, and here I am going back to Jason.

I wanted to put how Nehemiah fell and hit his eye but he's ok.

I meant to put how Sissy's eczema is clearing up. Maybe I didn't b/c I put all that on Facebook, I'm doing my best to not be depressing to talk to, to dwell on the positive.

Jason Timothy Daniels

2010-09-15T15:26:00.000-04:00

I got the call last week. Just a week ago.

You chose a different way than we would have liked.

You decided you wanted to go Home, and God welcomed you.

You know, I can remember right where I was....but I cannot remember for the life of me what I was doing. I think I was cutting an onion for supper....or doing dishes. All I know is, I will NEVER forget hearing Mom screaming and sobbing to tell me the news.

Jason, we all loved you so much.

Nehemiah asked me last night where you were. And, he wears the boots you got him all the time. He calls them his "Jason boots"

I saw you just the day before when I picked up Jordan for football practice. You came out to see my kids, and pick on Stephen. You were acting like a kid, happy, the way I want to remember you. You had the cheesiest smile on your face.

It rained the day of your Memorial. I prayed that it would. Jason, if you could have seen how many people were there, maybe you'd know how much you meant to people.

I know you can't read this, and I know I'm doing this to put my thoughts down.

I'll never forget the love you had for kids and animals. As someone once said, you love the innocent.

We know you're happy, not hurt anymore. But we're left to pick up the pieces. Dad cleaned your truck out yesterday. He pulled it from the backyard into the front and it sounded like you coming home.

I know someday we'll join you.

Maybe in the meantime you're fixing another diesel truck, or riding a horse.

It's not the same down here without you.

Mom and Dad had the song you wrote recited at the service. And Dad wrote you a letter. Maybe someday I'll put them on here.

A teacher gave Jordan a poem you'd written last year.

Through all the things we've found of yours, you always talked of God's love. You were hurt, and torn up inside, but you never blamed God.

I heard a minister say once that we view God how we view our Fathers, so I pray that you knew how much Dad loved you, and Mom, and your sisters, and Brothers, nieces, nephews, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends, and so many, many more people are left with an empty spot in their life now that you are gone.

can't think of an exciting title

2010-08-31T14:01:00.001-04:00

It's naptime here at the Magoulas household. Which means Virginia is sleeping. Nehemiah has decided he's done with naps. Because he hasn't been fussy, I've let him stay up. He enjoys the time with just Mom, and getting to play without Virginia getting into his toys.

I need to work on Miah's 2 year pics...yes, it's a little late. I'm waiting until Alex has some time off and can watch Virginia, and I'd like it to not be as hot so I can take the pics at the Woods.

Yesterday it dawned on me that Miah has been wanting to "watch" alot of movies. He's not really watching them, but he wants the noise. Today I turned on a sermon, and he's as happy as can be. I can listen to Bro Branham, and Nehemiah is happy that something is playing!

Virginia seems to like her "letter."

Karisha Browning sent V some new outfits and I just love how this one looks on Miss Virginia!

A few weeks ago Alex decided I should get my hair permed again :) He knows I like it permed and it's been since the kids were here that I've had one.

I do believe Nehemiah was bored with getting his picture taken!

This is a common face for Virginia to make. She'll get real excited and scrunch her nose up and make a silly noise. The stickers in her hair were from her brother. Not sure what he was doing, but he was quite proud of the look he accomplished!

Monday Morning thoughts

2010-08-09T12:11:00.000-04:00

Here I am again, at my computer. Wondering if anyone really reads this, if anyone really cares.

One child is asleep, the other one needs constant watching. See what he did to his eyes? That's only a small sampling of what he did to himself. He also colored his sister.

Every part of them had at least one marker mark on them. I had only turned my back for a minute and this is what I turned back to. Right now, he's sporting glue on his face. Why? B/c I'd turned my back again.

Nehemiah found that he LOVES to talk. Saturday while outside waiting for my parents to come over, he pointed to everything he knew the name of and called out the name of it. That kept him busy for quite some time.

He's learning his colors. Most times he's only guessing, but there are times he does remember them. Blue is his favorite color to guess.

He's growing up so quickly. He likes to play with Sissy, but is also happy playing by himself. Right now he's on the floor with his Hermie doll playing.

I had started to potty train him, but he wanted nothing to do with it. He'd gone in the potty several times, but I think it scared him, so I'll wait awhile to try again. I decided a long time ago, that potty training was not something I was gonna force, he'll get it when he's ready, and he's just not ready yet :)

Some days I sit in amazement as I catch a glimpse of who he'll be when he's older. The other day he had on jeans, a t-shirt and had a bookbag on his back, and I knew that all too soon he'll be headed to school. My plan right now is to send him to public school, at least for the first years to get his basics down. But, I've got awhile, that could change, and I'll homeschool him.

My Mom likes to wait until she finds the perfect gift, and she's been searching for a bubble gum machine for Nehemiah. I saw one this weekend and let her know. She bought and and bubble gum to go with it! When I took Nehemiah over later he must have known it was there b/c he went directly to it!!

Miss Sis is growing so much. She's been crawling for months now, and standing too! I'm waiting for her to take her first step *wipes tear* ;)

Her skin has good days, and it has bad. It'll clear up, then she'll get too hot and break out. Or she'll get upset and dig at it. I'm tempted to get baseball mitts and tape them to her little hands, but I don't think that would help.

Virginia has 6 teeth now and nows how to use them! Sometimes for good, like eating, Yay! She wants nothing to do with baby food most days!

And....sometimes for bad....many teeth marks have been left on Nehemiah before I can get to her!

She has become very independant and wants to feed herself,

but at the same time is reliant on Mom and wants held alot.

I love dressing her in frilly little outfit and get told she looks like a Princess alot :)

She LOVES wearing jewlery. Yesterday she sported a necklace, bracelet, and cute headband. The headband she wasn't fond of, but she loved the bracelet and necklace. :)

I love the smile she has when she sees someone she knows. Some of her favorite people are, Nehemiah, Daddy, Uncle Jesse, Adaliah, Soloman (Ok...he's a dog, but don't tell him that!!) GrandMom, GG, Nicole, Stephanie....oh who am I kidding?! She loves all her family...well...there are some she's scared of, but I won't put their names on here :)

Last week my parents both had the week off and Tuesday we planned to go to Shipshawana. It started out a VERY raining day, but we braved it. All kids had an umbrella (Thanks Miguel for buying a new one for V when her's broke!!) and were so good all day! After the rain stopped, we endured the heat and humidity! Yuck...I'd have rather kept the cold rain!!

Mom and I both bought a wall hanging while we were there. This is what mine looks like. Her's has ladybugs with the grandkids names on it and says "GrandMom's Lovebugs" She also has a bone with her dogs names on it.

Adaliah came for a visit awhile ago and I had fun curling her hair. Maybe I should have done it earlier in the day, and not when both kids were exhausted b/c neither had taken a nap.

She looks like a mini Stephanie here!

Alex has been working alot lately but finally got around to putting Nehemiah's jeep together that my parents got him for Christmas!

I'll share a testimony then click the "publish post" button so this long post doesn't get any longer! :)

Last Sunday Alex was to preach in Akron. He's worked Saturday so I offered to get up with him at 5:30, get the kids around and drive him there.

We had prayed before leaving and off we went!

While on 30 it became very foggy, to the point that I couldn't see in front of me. I told myself, "well, good thing you prayed for traveling mercies, so no worries" Right then the thought entered my mind, "Yeah....but if a deer comes onto the road, you won't stop in time" (side story...I hit a deer once on a backroad in the dark...and now I hate driving in the dark, and I'm worried I'll hit another deer!)

I knew it was Satan putting that thought in my head, and told myself, not to worry, God is bigger than any deer and He was protecting us, but all the while I was watching for one, knowing I'd see one.

Right after we'd cleared the fog, we were on a three lane highway, and there he was. A massive deer. I told Alex he looked like he was a moose he was so big! This deer was walking across the road. LIke he was on a stroll and knew I couldn't hit him. To me, it was as though God was saying, "I told you I'd protect you, stop fearing" I can't say I enjoy driving in the dark yet, or that I've stopped worrying about deer, but I know God is always in control

Now...where is that *publish post* button? ;)

In the Still of the night

2010-07-26T11:10:00.000-04:00

Isn't it funny sometimes how God speaks to us?

Last night Alex went to bed and I decided to stay up a little bit.

I didn't have anything I NEEDED to do.

Actually I WANTED to go to bed.

But something told me not to.

So I waited.

I messed around online, I did laundry, I cleaned up some.

Then I did something I don't do.

I checked on my kids.

I don't know why I don't check on them before I go to bed.

But last night I did.

And I could smell Virginia before I could see her.

Both my kids get sick when they are teething , and have awful diapers.

All yesterday Virginia had been not feeling well b/c of her teeth.

I changed her, checked on Miah.

Smiled at Miah b/c he had his Hermie doll sleeping on top of him.

And went back downstairs.

And it hit me.

Any other night, I would have been asleep long before then.

And poor Miss V? That would have been sitting on her, burning her little bottom.

What if I'd waited until morning?

Poor girl already has skin problems, how long would it take to clear that up?

But someone urged me to stay awake.

New link

2010-07-23T22:27:00.000-04:00

Added a new link to my sidebar
http://naturallycleandetergent.webs.com/

Trying something new...

2010-07-07T21:22:00.001-04:00

Gonna try something I haven't done in a long time....a post with no pictures!!

I have a testimony to post.

I am one of those Mom's who likes to know where her kids are...at all times. And when we're outside I'm extra watchful. I don't like them out of my sight at all. Maybe it's b/c we live with three sides of our house next to roads. Maybe it's b/c the neighbors let their dogs run loose. Or it could just be that I am that way.

But whatever the reason, I'm thanking God that I do keep close tabs on my kids.

Yesterday while I was turning the hose to the garden on, Nehemiah walked to the garden. The hose is on the side of the house, and the garden is behind the house.

In the 30 seconds that he was out of my sight, a van pulled off the road and into the alley behind our house and the man driving started talking to Nehemiah.

When I walked up, the man drove off.

Maybe the guy was being friendly, maybe not. I don't know. But it reminded me to keep my eyes on my kids!

We've been gone!

2010-07-02T00:49:00.001-04:00

Alex decided awhile back that during his shut down, we were going on a family vacation! *insert cheers*

We went to Mackinaw City!

Here was Nehemiah's reaction to the water!

Just me, oh....and the bridge

We went into a shop and when we were leaving the lady gave the kids each a shirt!

Who would want to get food from a store with this on top of it? My husband would! Twice!!

Know what this is??

All of us! :)

Nehemiah's favorite thing to do! Throw stones into the lake!

We got up Tuesday morning and headed up. We stopped at my inlaws to give Alex's sister her birthday gift and we were on our way!

Well, until we saw the outlet mall! Alex and I both got some things we were happy about!

We got up to Mackinaw at about 4:30 and headed straight to the beach. Wow, it was COLD!!!

After getting checked into the hotel we went for supper and had pasties.

Alot of our time was spent looking in the different shops. I liked going in and out of each one. Looking at the fudge, or little trinkets.

Both Nehemiah and Virginia were so well behaved while we were there! One morning at breakfast a lady stopped me and told me how great they were. I had to agree :)

I also heard someone say something about the "boy and girl twins" I laughed and kept walking.

I could go on and on about the fun we had....but I'm too tired. Plus I have to get ready for Nehemiah's birthday party!

Last Saturday.

2010-06-22T14:11:00.000-04:00

Last Saturday my family loaded up and went to Garrett, which happens to be where I lived the first 5 years of my life! Mom and I took my kids and went for a ride, with Nicole's van carrying everyone else. Mom asked if I remembered how to get to our old house, I did, thanks :) We found a couple parks while we were there and let the kids play for awhile.

Not sure who was having more fun here, Jesse or Adaliah??

Miss Virginia loves to swing!

Just watching the kids have fun! :)

The boys loved playing on the teeter totter! My Dad saw his sister Tara while we were there, she lives in a nursing home b/c she has MS

My lil Princess!

This was taken at Mom's house, but I like the pic

Yes, it was next to impossible to get a pic of the 4 sitting still!

Til next time!

Nehemiah is gonna be....2!

2010-06-17T16:21:00.000-04:00

Two years ago, I still looked like this!! Alex and I were heading out to Pizza Hut b/c we knew that night I was going into the hospital to have my baby boy!!

He came out, but not without a few problems. Nothing serious, but enough to scare a first time Mom!!

Our little family of three!

Already posing for pictures!

He's always had a sweet smile!

Oh, The things we do to our kids!

Here's to another year Mr. Man!

a night out

2010-06-10T00:10:00.000-04:00

For awhile I've wanted to take Nehemiah putt putting but wasn't sure how he'd do.....as you can tell from the pics...he thought it was great!

some pics for Stephanie to enjoy

2010-05-28T23:26:00.000-04:00

More Zoo hightlights

2010-05-21T22:34:00.000-04:00

Zoo fun!

2010-05-21T22:26:00.000-04:00

Wed Alex and I took our kids to the Zoo! Mike and Nicole took Micah. The kids had a blast!

Don't let Micah's face fool ya...*grin*

Nicole, Mike and Micah

*ROAR*

I love how it looks like Micah is marching in front of the hyena

Last year I took a pic of Alex and Nehemiah like this, and Alex wanted me to take another one! :)

I like this pic of Micah

Life

2010-05-16T13:11:00.000-04:00

It's been busy here. Nothing overly exciting, just....life.

Both kids are getting bigger. Virginia

will be 7 months old next week, and Nehemiah will be 23 months. And that means....next month he'll be 2!!!

Nehemiah talks alot now....and sometimes in sentences!! He's normally tattling when he does say a complete sentence though.

Nehemiah loves his "Sissy" as he's taken to calling her.

Next Monday, the 24th, is Virginia's dermatologist appt and I cannot wait to hear what they'll say! It'll be so nice to have her face clear. Poor thing doesn't know it's not normal to have your face feel like that. It breaks my heart. She's such a good, and happy baby! It's sad to not want to take her out b/c people still treat her/me like there is something terribly wrong. Or complete strangers will tell me what they think I should do. Of course when I say she has eczema, everyone tells me, "My son/daughter/niece/newphew/cousin/neighbor/dog/.....has that!"

Nehemiah has had alot of "firsts" lately. Him and I danced in the rain last week....it was so much fun to see him running around with his tongue hanging out!

We went to a school carnival last night. He thought it was a ton of fun. He "won" every game he played. Of course with him being little they'd let him get closer to the games, or help him. He did play a dice game called Lucky 7's. He loved throwing the dice and played it several times. (They were over sized dice) You had 3 chances to get a 7....he got a seven on his first try each time. He also bowled, threw toilet paper in a toilet, golfed, and did a bean bag game. He wasn't so good at the golf. Maybe Alex and I will take him putt putting sometime soon so his doesn't embarrass the golfers in the family. Haha

Mr. Mi is a tad confused on what ball gloves are...he wears his winter mittens to play with the ball. Such a goof.

My sisters and I had a garage sale last week. We did pretty good! There are a few larger items I'd still like to sell, so I'm gonna list the things on Craigslist and see how they do.

I'm hoping to take the kids to the zoo soon. :) So we'll see how that goes. This week is Alex's long week off.

Well, kids and Alex are all asleep, so I'm gonna get something done around here. Hmmm...which should I do, nap or clean??? Zzzzzzzzz ;)

my lil Princess

2010-04-15T14:33:00.000-04:00

Many people know how upset I've been over Virginia's face. The mother in me hurts to see my baby hurt. The vain person in me hated getting asked "What's wrong with her?!" Like my lil girl had a horrible disease. And I got it from everyone. People I knew, people in line, random people. My answer was always the same, "She has eczema. She's fine. Yes, I'm sure it hurts. Yes, I'm doing what I can. No, the doctor hasn't said much."

Saturday night as my lil Princess was CRYING from the pain, I could no longer take it. Her face was looking terrible, she was in obvious pain, and her tears were breaking my heart.

Anyone who has every seen Virginia knows she is a very happy and pleasant baby. She smiles at everyone, she's only truly upset when she's hungry.

Saturday her face was looking like this. Bright red, splotchy, oozing sores. I saw sores on her that I thought looked like chicken pox and I called my Mom. Mom also thought they looked like it, so off to the ER we went. Maybe they thought I was silly at first, but then they started looking at her and were baffled as to what was wrong. They didn't know.

Another doctor was called in. Have I mentioned I'm not a huge fan of female doctors? Cuz, I'm not. Men are more level headed. Sure women are compassionate, but give me a man in a time of stress. The male doctor brought in a female. She hinted at fleas! Whoa....what?! No. I check Meda, she doesn't have them. I've seen flea bites, that was NOT it!!!! I was insulted. I was annoyed. I felt dirty and stupid!!

They decided she had several things wrong and precribed some meds to be picked up in the morning.

V hated the meds!! She would gag herself and throw up! Lovely.

But they were helping.

The sores were drying and her appt was set for Wed with a family doctor.

I was happy to hear she was seeing another doctor, not the one who told me to "keep her slathered in Eucerin, and if you can't afford Eucerin, use Crisco" Twice I'd been in and seen this doctor, twice that was what she told me.

I saw the other doctor, he told me...............don't put anything on her except an ointment to keep the infection away!!! He said she didn't have all the things the ER thought, but he could see why they had thought she had them. He said, Yes, she did look like she had chicken pox, but it was infection b/c of the eczema. An appt was set up with the dermatologist!

Her smiles now make me smile so much more to know she's not hurting!!!

I look at the beauty in this little girl and it makes me want to cry b/c of the pain she's been in and she's been happy through it all (well...except Saturday) She's not fussy, she's a beautiful lil girl who has a smile that will melt you!

The doctor said there will be no scarring and she'll be cleared up soon!!!!!! Praise the Lord!!

2010-04-09T10:55:00.000-04:00

Here is Nehemiah playing Peek A Boo with his sister. I love this video! :)

In other news, I switched Virginia's formula after a suggestion from Alex, and my friend, Paula Ross. Miss Virginia's face looks sooooo much better!!

And now, Nehemiah

2010-04-01T22:43:00.000-04:00

Nehemiah will be turning 2 soon! He's no longer a baby, but sometimes it's hard to not treat him like one.

Last night was his first night to sleep in his new toddler bed, he's not too sure about it. I think if I went to check on him right now he's not gonna be asleep in it.

He's still a sweet lil boy who loves to please. Well, unless you're Joseph. Then, he's likely to tell you, "Joseph, DON'T!!" Can you tell who teases the kids?

Miah loves all his Aunts and Uncles, and cousins, and grandparents.

He still likes to boss Adaliah around, but I'm trying to work on that, so far, it's not working too well. *sigh*

He loves playing peek-a-boo with his lil sister and his greatest delight is having her laugh at his antics.

He thinks horses are some of the coolest things around and will talk about them to anyone who will listen!

Nehemiah does not like his picture being taken anymore. And will do most anything to avoid it, but he loves to say he's sleeping and will proceed to close his eyes and lay his head down as soon as the camera is in his sight.

Poor lil guy has a sun burn from the hours he was outside today.

His vocabulary is becoming larger everyday. I've learned to watch what I say in front of his b/c he DOES repeat!! Not that I've said anything that I don't want repeated, but I tend to tell the dog to "shut up" when she's whining or barking, and Miah has picked up on that. My brothers think that one is funny and have got him to say it again.

I love watching Nehemiah grow and learn new things everyday.

I am blessed with my happy lil boy.

Mommy2Perfection

Sometimes...

sleeping kids!

Ideas from the forest: Folding christmas trees

Kids

Giveaway!!!!

I just won 25 points on the SuperLucky Button!

Another letter

Two Years old and still my Baby girl

Adorable

I will never!!

I just won 1 point on the SuperLucky Button!

My kids

Jason Timothy Daniels 6/16/91~9/8/10

A year ago

First day of pre school

cool website

Wondering....

Matthew 19:14

A day outside

Time Poem

New nephew

Memories

a sweet summer treat

Just pics

Thank you Lord

Played with a couple pics

A few pic of our newest baby

Kids

Welcome Baby Jana

Jana Renee Magoulas

Some pictures

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Weird Mom

Live like I was dying...

To infinity.....

Happy 3rd!

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smiley360.com—Be Heard. Be Happy.

Fort Wayne Zoo

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May

An Award!

Today

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Naturally Sweet

Can you guess.....

Daniels Grandkids

Jason

Love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening,

but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love.

It can't take away our memories either.

In the end, life is stronger than death.”

When you were born,

you were crying and everyone else was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,

you are smiling, and everyone else is crying.

Jason is still missed, of course.

Once in awhile Nehemiah will mention him. I don't try to stop him from knowing about Jason, or stop him from talking about him.

He's told me before that Jason was outside out window and wanted him to play, then Nehemiah tried to go out the front door. Oh, did I mention it was snowing, and there was ice on the ground?!

Yesterday I got up with Nehemiah pretty early, so we laid on the couch and I held him. All the sudden he says, "Who is that little guy?

Me: What little guy?

N: Oh, It's Jason.

Me: Jason is here? Where? On that chair? *pointing at the chair by the door which has a side table by it*

N: No, he's on the table *motioning toward side table*

Me: He's on the table?

N: Yes. Oh, Jason never went golfing. But, he has to go eat supper now.

Nehemiah later told Alex that Jason never went golfing and he looked so sad when he said it.

Was Jason there? I don't know. I do believe that Jason does visit us, and he might even be Nehemiah's guardian angel. He loved his nieces and nephews a lot.

But what is even more exciting than Nehemiah seeing Jason, is that I know someday I will see Jason. We'll never part, and we WILL be eating supper at the Marriage table.

Video

I am a Space Ranger....

Hard

Don't forget

Some of...

Just a day....

you were crying and everyone else was smiling.
Live your life so that when you die,

Me: Jason is here? Where? On that chair? pointing at the chair by the door which has a side table by it

N: No, he's on the table motioning toward side table