I will never!!

Isn't it funny that as soon as we hear those words come out of someones mouth, we almost laugh?

Maybe it's a young person looking at someone elses child, saying, "My child will never act like THAT!" 

Or a young woman saying, "I will never marry a man like MY dad!"

And we laugh. How many times must we say that, and wonder if God is laughing at us?

I vowed I would NEVER marry a man younger than me, he would NOT have a beard, and I didn't want him to preach!
And God laughed at me, and sent Alex my way. 

Now, in my defense, Alex didn't have a beard when we met, and he wasn't preaching. He was obviously younger than I was though. 

God worked around MY rules, by allowing me to fall in love with Alex before he preached, and before he grew a beard. 

I told myself I will NOT have a lot of children. Now, granted all the kids this picture are not mine, but three are. And really, I couldn't imagine life without them!!

I told myself, my daughters will NOT wear pants once they are walking, they WILL be in dresses and skirts. And God gave Virginia dry skin. 

Why? 

To punish me?

To hurt my girl?

Or was it to show me not to be so proud and to humble myself and know that sometimes things don't go the way I plan them, that I need to rest in His arms. 

I know my children aren't perfect, but, what does one expect, their Mom isn't perfect. 

but you know, He's still working on me. 

And.....He'll keep working on me until He takes me home.

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My kids

Jason Timothy Daniels 6/16/91~9/8/10

Jason Timothy Daniels 6/16/91~9/8/10

I Am From...

I am from wreckage, from a home broken from within.

I am from success, from a family that has set goals and achieved them.

I am from a paradox, from somewhere that is good, but not good for me.

I am from a small town, from friendly neighbors who gossip about me.

I am from religion, from a society that conforms to non-conformity.

I am from family, from protection, harm, encouragement, and discouragement.

I am from God, from a higher power that has set me in this test called "Life".

I am from love, from a love for all that is "Right" and "Godly".

I am from hate, from a hate for "things of this world" and for "wrong-doing".

I am from you, from the person who cares enough to listen to what I have to say.

I am from them, the people that criticize me and bring me down, so that I can rise above it.

I am from a higher calling, a calling that leads me to believe.

I am from believing, from a belief that Life is gerenally good, no matter how bad it may seem now.

I am from myself, from my inner beliefs that make me my individual self.

Written by Jason Daniels on September 2, 2009

A year ago

A year ago today, I could still call you. 

A year ago today, I could still talk to you. 

A year ago today, you were still here. 

A year ago tomorrow, it would be too late. 

A year ago tomorrow, you took matters into your hands. 

A year ago tomorrow, you left your family heart broken. 

You left so many behind, a Mom, Dad, sisters, brothers, neices. nephews, a son, grandparents, cousins, friends, Aunts, Uncles. 

A part of all of us were taken away when you left. 

A part of all of us are waiting for us in Heaven. 

So many times someone will do something and we'll say, "Jason used to do that."

We'll look at Jordan or Jesse and be reminded of how you looked. 

You are another reason we long to go Home.