Saturday, August 27, 2011


I'm trying to decide something, and I'd like others input.
It's coming up on the one year anniversary of Jason's death. It's hard to believe, but Sept 8th, he'll have been gone for one year. 
The last week of Jason's life he spent a lot of time at the VW fair. One of my last memories of Jason is seeing him at the fairgrounds, and telling Alex to try a certain sandwich (Alex did...and he liked it)
I told myself I wasn't gonna go to the fair b/c I don't know how I'd handle it. I can remember the exact spot I saw Jason. My Grandpa Barnhart also loved the fair and spent a lot of time there while he was living. 
Now I'm wondering if not going is right. Should I go for my kids? Nehemiah and Virginia would love it. 
I know I can't stop my life because Jason stopped living. 
What are YOUR thoughts? Would you go to the fair, or not?


  1. If I were you, I would go. As you said, Jason & your Grandpa loved the fair & I know your kids would love it too. I know that there are always going to be "last memories" of both of them, and any loved one that's passed...cherish them. I have no memory of my father that died when I was 10 months old & I'd give ANYthing, for just one memory. Your kids will LOVE the fair!! Make some happy memories with them....memories are to be made....not forgotten.

  2. I would also suggest going. I'm sure that Jason and your Grandpa would want you to go have some fun with your kids and make some fun, new memories of the fair! If you wanted to, you could even do something to kind of honor them while at the fair, ride their favorite ride, eat a sandwich in their memory... or even take a couple helium filled balloons to release in the spot that reminds you of them. =) Good luck with whichever way you decide... I'll be praying for your family at this one year anniversary. *hugs*

  3. I like Jeshanah's idea of releasing a balloon in the spot that reminds you of them, that would be a beautiful thing to do. I will also be praying for you & your family during this time as well.